Every single day I feel like I struggle with something. Some days it starts in the morning with little things like not wanting to get out of bed, because I couldn't seem to want to make myself go to bed the night before, and other days it is getting bad news about something, or just something not going the way that I wanted it to and yet sometimes I am just in a bad mood. It's kind of funny though if you think about it... all of those things begin with an "I statement", this is not a psychology moment. If I truly began my day the way I have been called to (Luke 9:23) this would not be a problem.
I was thinking about this earlier today about how much, the past several months or so I have seemed to face one struggle after another. Yet still, God has proven himself over and over and over again in my life. The mere fact that I can sit here and write this is a miracle. God has blessed me time and time again with his mercies and I still let the overwhelming feelings of these situations get to me.
I went with my parents and the children's pastor from church to another couple from the church's home because they were working on some details with a car. We ended up staying and talking for several hours. I, honestly, just wanted to go to get out of the house, but I am so glad I went. This couple was talking about how they met and how the Lord has really blessed them and then she said you know what, 37 years from tomorrow is when we met. I was amazed at how God has really blessed them because they have been so faithful through the good AND the bad. I want that. Not just because they are blessed but because they are so truly and genuinely happy.
The children's pastor was talking about getting ready with his wife and two small children to pick up and move to Niger, Africa to be missionaries with SIMAIR as one of their pilots. Then the conversation moved to my desire to be a missionary. This is not a secret that I have wanted to do this for a while, but it has been a long time since I have really been excited about being called to the mission field, a bit of a harsh reality for me. Something about the conversation really got me excited again. I am ready to focus on the ministry that God has laid out for me, wherever it may be on the mission field. So, needless to say I was very glad that I went and was able to really be surrounded by friends and love in such a warm Christian environment.
So as this week is coming to an end and I have to say I am ready to face the struggles this next week, and the week after, and so on head on because honestly if I didn't have the struggle the good times, when they come, wouldn't be so wonderful. I may not always feel this way in the moment, but in the end the hard times are what make the good times so great and I truly thank God for them.
Blessings,
Rebecca
Verse(s) of the Day: Lamentations 3:22-23 The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
Hey Sugar,
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you!
Isaih 65:24 - I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking about their needs, I will go ahead and answer their prayers.
Satan wants to discourage and defeat you at all angles. He will use anything to do it too. But God is so much more and He loves you!!!