Wow! It has been a while since I posted anything but life has truly been CRAZY lately. I'm still taking my class on Tuesday and Thursday nights which takes up a good bit of time to read and get all of my notes typed up. I started a new job last week as a sitter, it's it just as it sounds, I sit for 7.5 hours (I get a 30 min break). I am working 3rd shift, which I really like because it gives me time to do things during the day, although lately I pretty much only sleep.
These past 2 nights at work have been extremely hard for me. The first night my patient started yelling for God to "let him in" and then he started to talk to his parents (I was the only other one in the room and this person is much older so I'm almost positive his parents are no longer on earth). Then, last night he was very restless for most of the night then once he was given lots of pain medication and other meds he finally was able to get some sleep but he was very out of it. This patient reminded me a lot of a mixture of my grandfather and his roommate from the nursing home. I have never been taken back so much by the thought of death. I have worked in/ been around the medical field since I was six years old (for those of you who don't know that means 15, almost 16 years) so I have been around my fair share of death and dying but never like this. I have never been in the room just me a person who is slowly dying. It was almost as if I could look death in the face because I could the process taking over on his body. It was a crazy experience how in a matter of 24 hours the process of dying can occur so quickly.
This whole thing made me think about how I am truly blessed to have been raised in a home where I don't have to be afraid to talk about death or think about being uncertain of what is going to happen to me after I am no longer on this earth. I am thankful for a God who gives me peace that is overwhelming in knowing I can forever live in His presence and with those who I have loved forever when it is all said and done. This may sound a little morbid and maybe it is to you but I am just very happy I have security in knowing where I am going to be for eternity. I think working in the medical field makes you face this reality more than any other field.
So, for me it all comes down to having the assurance of knowing I can spend forever being romanced by the King of the Ages. As musician Evan Earwicker says in his song "Dance with Me":
"I want to be romanced by the King of the Ages
I don't want to sing of a passion I've never known
I want to get lost in the beauty of Jesus
To dance through the night around Your throne"
and by having the faith that I do I can know I can spend eternity doing this and to me that is amazing.
A Blessed Child,
Rebecca
Hi Rebecca :) You don't know me....I got to your blog via "New Mercies Each Day"'s blog. And, I will tell you up front, I'm an old lady of 62 with 5 grandchildren - two sets of twins! But I love the way you write, precious one. I've never heard this song, "Dance with Me", but the words are beautiful! Will have to look it up and listen to it. :) You've probably been around death more than I have, dear. Oh, I've lost loved ones, but was only by my mother's side when she went on to be with the Lord. It's an awesome experience to KNOW where you will spend eternity:) Thank you for letting me comment and hope you will drop by my place sometime! Kathy
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