Healing comes through Tears

I feel like all of my blogs have slight depressing tones, so be forewarned tonight that is not going to change.


I got a text from my mom today to call her at work, which is never a good thing. So when I woke up and called mom, she told me a 17 year old from our church died this morning. Allison has had quite the battle with lung cancer and after a double lung transplant on January 25. God just did not see it fit for her small body to be healed on earth, instead He took her home this morning at 1030. Allison had so much life left to live, is what so many people would say, but we are not the Maker of Time so she lived for every moment that God had set for her to be on this earth.

The death of someone who is so young, for many of us, is such a sad thing and for me it is no different. There are so many times when someone who has had cancer or been very ill for a long time passes away and the first question for me, honestly, is WHY? Why did this person have to die? Why, God, are you allowing this person's family to suffer? Why did you choose for me to live and not them?

Recently, I heard a sermon (listen to the sermon) on 'WHY'. The series was called 'Stuff We Don't Know'. The pastor spoke on the verse Isaiah 55:8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD." He talked about how the way we think is not even close to the way God does. For me, it is like the child's toy where you have the shape and the toy, where you have to match the shape with the toy. We are like the square and God is the circle no matter how many different ways we can try to put the square toy in the circle shape it won't fit, but we can try to study the shape and learn to know, as best we can, the ins and outs of the shape of the circle, just like we can learn more about God from His word.

One day we will understand, but it may not be here on earth. Imagine if God thought like we did, we would all always get what we wanted, when we wanted... too much chaos for me! I am so thankful, not always during the circumstance but in the end I am, that God doesn't think like I do.

So, as Laura Story (singer/songwriter) would say:
     Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
     What if Your healing comes through tears
     What if a thousand sleepless nights
     Are what it takes to know You’re near?
     What if trials of this life
     Are Your mercies in disguise?

Verse(s) of the Day: Isaiah 55: 8-9 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.