The biggest news of all is I earned my Mrs. degree two months ago. It was is an addition to my name that I will forever be thankful for. I love my husband and how he loves me so well through all we have been through this past year, or so, and been my physical rock to lean on while I have not had the strength to make myself go. Earlier this year after many years of struggling with a thyroid disorder and some concerning lab results my Endocrinologist decided it was time I see a surgeon to look at getting one (or multiple- we all have 4) malfunctioning parathyroid removed. To make a long story short the surgeon (after a long talk, discussion with my Endocrinologist, and lots prayer for several weeks) allowed me to make the decision to have my thyroid removed as well (it was going to have to be removed eventually anyway). After all of that there was some extra removal--- after some testing, words I never thought I would hear again, cancer. Thankfully, God allowed them to find it quickly and it had not spread anywhere else. So, currently Zach and I are learning what married life is like and how to love each other well. I love married life! I love my husband!
Recently, I heard a person speak on The Beatitudes (Matthew 5:2-12). Verse 4 states "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted". I heard this in a very nonconventional context. Ther person speaking was discussing the message that had been delivered at their wedding ceremony. Her father officiated the sermon and after reading this passage to them that in all of life that they would know what it is like to mourn so they can also know how amazing it is when the God we serve provides comfort. He stated that for each of the statements; to know what it is like to hunger and thirst so they also know what it is like when God provides fullness, and so on.
This year is the first time my husband (yes I still refer to him this way often because it still makes me feel giddy and excited to say it) and I will be having Thanksgiving with my dad's family since we lost my dad's middle sister (she was number 4 in the 6 Priest kid line up) to breast cancer. I miss her terribly, more than words in any way or language can express and to be quite honest I am not looking forward to this "celebration of being thankful" without her. I love each of my dad's siblings in their own way but she and I had a special bond like none other. I saw her picture posted by another aunt on Facebook and she looked healthy (or at least healthier than at the end). Today, as my day off, I was spending time cleaning my house and trying to get things in order I spent some time thinking about her and how much I really am going to Providential peace as I spend time with these people that I love but all remind me of her. Then, without another thought, I walked outside to feed Jax (one of our two dogs) and I saw this sunset.
I knew in that moment all is going to be ok and even when I have thoughts of mourning I have a God who provides comfort. I know I may not have it this weekend but he will provide because He is a good God and for that I am forever blessed. So for now I am going to remember I am clinging to the truth that my God is good and because of that I can be Thankful for Mourning.
Love to each of you,
Mrs. Robertson
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